Everyone I know at the moment seems polarised. They're either fine, quite happy, ticking along, things going good, actually feeling rested or they're having a really hard time. There doesn't seem to be anyone in between...
I haven't written on here for a few days because I didn't know what to write. Steve once called me a life editor; I removed all the boring, insulting or depressing things from my life and focused on the funny and positive when I wrote and I guess that's true. True of my outlook on life in general really.
I haven't known what to write because I couldn't write about what was going through my head. Before anyone panics I'm cool, actually I'm really good. I'm feeling rested, challenged and content, but people I love aren't great. Some of my closest friends are in a really dark place and I can't bring them out of it. Worse, I shouldn't, they need to do it themselves. It's really dis-empowering.
I'm someone who jumps into the middle of my friends problems and wants to be with them as they work it through, but their are some places I can't go. Some problems I can't fix. Only God can. I trust him, but I wish I could do more.