It's a funny thing being engaged. No matter how mentally prepared you think you are, the knowledge of what it means hits you with some gravity when you're actually living it out. For the first few days I was walking around with what felt like a dazzling beacon on my ring finger that both attracted and amazed me at the same time...
I'm getting married. That's huge! I'm marrying Steve. That's unbelievable! I am really really happy, very excited and just a little scared. I guess I felt like I'd gotten to a place where I knew myself and my life pretty well and now I know that a lot will change in the coming year.
I have no doubts or even wobbles but I am really struck by the weight of our decision and I'm beginning to comprehend how all encompassing married life will be. I guess I'm embarking on my next great adventure with my best friend.
Everyone's getting excited, asking for dates, wanting to hear the story again and again and my sister keeps calling to ask me to look at such and such a wedding dress designed by the latest fabulous designer. It's all a little surreal, this is really happening, right here, right now.
I'm so glad that we not getting into planning and what not for a few months, I think I need to think about our lives post the wedding day for a while and really know what I want. The temptation to get swept into the wedding torrent is great but I think I'll fight it off a little longer. I love my fiance, I love my God and I'm excited and slightly in awe of my future... xc