The last few days I've felt that twinge of intuition, thought, peace, reaccuring musing that usually meens God's trying to tell me something. It really began two weeks ago when I realised that my expectations of what God could do were very low. I've gotten so used to making excuses when he doesn't move that my faith has truly shrunk to the size of a mustard seed. Though I know that's enough to move a mountain I haven't really been aiming and firing lately...
From raising my expectations I moved to thinking about raising my faith. From raising my faith to looking at how I pray. I am a seasonal person, intense burst of one thing and then a period of a much more relaxed rhythm. I'm learning that it's the way I'm made and flow with it and grow from there rather than force myself into a mould I don't actually fit.
In the last two days I've been asked questions like "Where do you see 24-7 in 5 years?" and for the first time I wanted to answer... "Healing people, changing communities, showing more and more people who Jesus is, raising those who have died prematurely and seeing genuine transformation in people's lives.
Today Faith Forster spoke to us about our rhythms, methods and passion for prayer; an unusual topic for 24-7 but one we definitely needed to hear. A month ago I was challenged by Susanna's monthly days with God and I can't stop being bugged by the thought... "I can't save anyone, why am I trying to do this without praying."
Hmmm I have lots and lots to mull over, I might revisit my prayer life and give a shake up... xc